Nainital and Sherwood
ended abruptly. On the 5th afternoon after
the Founder's Day formal address and
presentation, I had to excuse myself in the
middle of everything. It had been planned to
reach PanthNagar to catch the private
charter by 3 pm that day so that I could
reach Delhi and take the mid night flight to
Bangkok for IIFA, landing there just in time
for the press conference to be attended by
honored dignitaries from both countries.
The airfield at PanthNagar sent a flash
message suddenly to say that the weather was
rapidly deteriorating and if we did not take
off soon we would be grounded. I pleaded
with the Principal, who understanding the
urgency of the matter granted us leave and
we rushed out.
With the crowds and media milling around it
is tough negotiating your way through. They
want your attention and you want to respond
to them, but how does one explain the
urgency of the matter to all. So you push
through, smile on face, waving
acknowledgement, with the promise to return
and maybe to meet up later. It is
disappointing for the fans and you hope that
they will understand. It is disappointing
for the media and you hope that they will
not think you are being dismissive and
arrogant. But in moments like this I believe
one must act towards addressing the urgency
first. All else can follow later. There has
never been any clear strategy on this. I
have often tried to see how my colleagues
and compatriots handle such situations and
perhaps learn from them but I have yet to
strike a common balance on this. Departing
through back doors attracts an element of
rudeness and disinterest. Facing them
through recognized exits and not reaching
out to them smells of arrogant high
handedness. What does one do ?
All this and more races through the mind as
we drive down the curved passages from the
School, down passed the bus stand at the
lake and on to Kathgodam and Haldwani.
And without warning the strains of the song,
sung at the end of term for the Farewell
Concert at Sherwood, just before we left for
our homes after 9 months, drifts through the
mind -
A few more days and we shall be
Rejoicing at our liberty.
And when the moment comes to scram,
We'll trundle down to Kathgodam.
And the bells will ring ,
And the boys will sing,
As the boxes are being taken away -
And the girls will cry,
As we kiss 'em goodbye,
And we wish them a happy holiday -
50 years !
And the song the tune and the rhythm still
there, alive and bright.
Just the day before, all of us Old
Sherwoodians of the Class of '58, sitting in
the Principals office, waiting anxiously for
the rain to stop so we could formally go
down and inaugurate the PT Display, had out
of great nostalgia, from nowhere and
suddenly, started singing the ditty to the
utter amazement of those around. The glow on
our aged faces, the spring of energy in our
voices and the gentle hint of emotion, made
that moment just so complete.
We were back in School. Nothing had changed
within us ! We were those 16 year olds again
thrilled beyond everything at our
reminiscences.
The day before had been cute and so
endearing. Junior School had performed on
stage. Pink in cheek and smartly attired in
their blazers, hands obediently held behind
their backs, walking up in disciplined order
they had drawn huge applause from the
audience when they sang and enacted the ever
popular 'John Brown's Baby..' . That night
the 58 ers had huddled in the newly
constructed indoor badminton courts for
dinner and exchanged photographs of the
times in school. Each one of us bringing out
some old reference, each one of us almost
squealing with excitement at our
disposition, our tales and escapades ribbing
each other.
Ideas were discussed as to what we could
give back to the alma mater. Something of
value, something lasting and for posterity.
And after much debate came the final word. A
two storied dormitory for the girls, where
50 more students could be housed, thereby
encouraging Sherwood to make an appreciable
change in the percentage ratio between the
boys and the girls. Of the 700 students
presently, only 70 were girls !
The PT display that delayed evening was
awesome. Just an unbelievable display of
coordination and physical strength. At any
given moment there were more than 300 of
them on the field in formation drills and
not a single beat was missed or a finger
that went out of rhythm. We had all sat on
the hillside, now well cemented into a
pavilion like stand and in our overcoats and
woollies to protect us from the cold of the
night, and had joined the Old Sherwoodians
in loud and exited chorus of 'Sherwood !
Sherwood ! Ra ! Ra ! Ra ! every time
something dramatic and breathtaking was
undertaken by the boys and girls. What a
night ! And the roar that went up after the
announcement of a 10 day holiday almost
shook Dorothy's Seat way up on the right; a
'seat' of great adventure in our times.
At the service in the Chapel Abhishek and
Aishwarya joined us; they having traveled
from Mumbai through the day to be with us. A
solemn moment as we remembered those of us
that we lost in the years gone by. The
ambience had changed; there was an extension
to the building to accommodate more, but the
atmosphere and the hymns sung were just so
nostalgic. With Churchill and Gandhi's
favorite 'Abide with me..' the service came
to an end. Such a sonorous and delicate
piece of music. Takes me back to school
every time I hear it and of course to the
Beating of the Retreat ceremony during
Republic Day at Vijay Chowk in New Delhi,
when just before the sun sets behind the
majestic Rashtrapati Bhavan the Army Band
strikes up the hymn; the most poignant
moment being the refrain from the buglers on
top of the two huge towers on the side,
quite some distance away. It was always
puzzling for me ascertain how the main band
on the pathway kept in rhythm despite the
distance between bugle and them.
Just before we all went into documenting the
58ers in year 2008 standing in exactly the
way they had stood 50 years ago for the
class photograph, we unveiled Rev Llewelyn's
bust by the Chapel Bell, stood in prayer and
remembrance, as Bishop Cutting blessed the
occasion and then went down to the seniors
play at Milmi.
The last day had been busy and rushed, but I
was able to deliver my speech which I had
prepared somewhat arduously, at the formal
Prize Distribution. It was strong I thought,
but its contents were the need of the hour.
This is how it went -
Bishop Cutting, Chief Guest Inderjeet Khanna,
Principal Mr Amandeep Sandhu, the
distinguished Staff and Teachers on the dias,
parents, friends, ladies and gentlemen and
the marvellous students of Sherwood -
Good Afternoon.
Here, where I stand today, is where I trod
the boards some half a century ago. Here I
felt the most awesome elation, winning the
Kendall Cup, all those years ago. Same
boards? Same tread? Same person? I hope so.
For me, it remains one of my most glorious
moments of personal victory and I still
remember it so clearly, it could have been
yesterday. The Cup I won for my part as the
mayor in Gogol's The Government Inspector.
The year before, it was The Happiest Days of
Your Life, a British Comedy. I won nothing
for that performance, my first at the
school, but they were indeed the happiest of
days for me, those of my time at Sherwood.
But time has moved swiftly apace since. Now,
I revisit these very boards beneath my feet
to speak in commemoration of Founder's Day.
I come with a great sense of privilege and
honour. The greater privilege and honour is
that which Sherwood bestowed upon me fifty
years ago: the privilege and honour of being
one of its own. To my alma mater I take the
opportunity today to pay reverent homage.
Founder's Day is an annual rite of passage.
It is a moment of reflection upon the past.
It is a moment to acknowledge the many
achievements of excellence of its present
students in the full assembly of its
community. It is also a moment to look to
the future.
The changes to the school that I see here
now are exciting.
The strong emphasis on computer technology
and its literacies is essential in a world
of ever wider and transforming webs. Our own
individual worlds expand; the world at large
shrinks. As some of you may be aware, I've
rather taken to that medium myself recently.
But even beyond this, it is the introduction
of girls, the beginnings of a co-educational
system, that is most wonderful to me. In my
day, a lot of us would have been saved many
a caning if it had been so in our time.
Then, the boundary perimeter of our sister
school, All Saints, was known amongst us as
"The Wall". It was a very prominent but
highly secret institution in our lives, to
put it mildly. When I contemplate the memory
of the frustration of our most healthy
curiosities, my response to this change is
best captured in one word: it is humane.
Yet on a more serious note, the civilising
nature of co-education extends beyond such
innocent flights of youthful exploration:
the equal and shared pursuit of knowledge by
boys and girls together is good and just. It
can only encourage mutual respect and
understanding between the sexes, a
circumstance much needed in our society
where the value of women as equal in dignity
is still persistently ignored.
But there are continuities as well that
deserve mention: I was only here for three
years, and yet the school left a profound
impression on me.
The true impact that Sherwood College has
had on my life resides in its ethos. This
forms the core of continuity between my
generation and the present one.
The education of the greatest value that I
received here is how to be a human being of
what we call, in shorthand, Character. And I
don't mean the ones I play in films.
Admittedly I had the benefit of
inspirational parentage, but Sherwood taught
me how to live in dignity with my peers,
live in a community, and live well with
myself in the world at large in consequence.
Living together, working together, learning
together, fighting and loving each other,
competing fairly in noble rivalry and
cooperating supportively, I learnt a sense
of fellowship and comraderie. I learnt the
true virtue of friendship as an individual,
and the virtue of community as a collective.
The strength of these bonds is demonstrated
by the fact that, fifty years after, so many
of my class of '58 have remained in touch
and gather here today.
So what is Character? What is
character-building?
First one must value the character by giving
it dignity. Sherwood encouraged this.
Dignity is gained through understanding that
a human being is an integrated whole: the
intellect, the body, the spirit, are equally
important and interrelated.
Dignity is gained by understanding that this
integrity of a human being, regardless of
differences between one and another, has an
ultimate value in itself. It has merit
beyond any particular achievement, success
or even failure. Giving a human being
dignity is understanding that each one of us
has our own distinct merits, talents, and
value in the world.
Mereat quisque palmam. So well put by
Sherwood's motto: let each one merit their
own prize.
Secondly, one must harness the power of
dignity through training, the training of
the mind, the body, and the spirit. Another
word for this training is discipline.
Yes, discipline! I didn't always like or
agree with the routine of boarding school
and the rules. But afterwards, I can tell
you, I really appreciated the fact that had
it not been for its initially imposed
regimen, I could not have learned to harness
the power of my own dignity for myself.
And this transition is the third element of
building the character, which is truly a
life-long enterprise, and despite support
and encouragement, it is one that ultimately
can only be conducted alone. Self-discipline
gives measured thought and the patient
judgment of maturity. It gives
self-reliance. At its best and most noble,
it is self-government. It brings true
freedom.
The boxing ring at school here in my days - probably long abolished as a barbaric
practice - to me it was a great tutor in
this regard. You will have any amount of
support from outside the ropes, but inside,
you are on your own. Similarly, in the life
beyond, you may have a die-hard corps of
cheering fans - and also perhaps those that
jeer at you in contempt - but at the end of
the day you must engage life alone.
I speak from some measure of experience as
you all may well appreciate. But I ask you
to leave aside for a brief moment my public
personas and those that I inhabit on the
silver screen and hear me in my candour as I
now stand before you. With the passing of
the years a belief of mine sewn here in seed
has grown to conviction. It is the belief
that the greatest prize in life is not the
recognition of worldly success. The prize
that best crowns the human being is that of
the possession of good character. It is a
strenuous prize: daily it must be re-won. It
is also a certainty of mine that there is
many a day where I fail that prize myself,
not for want of trying. But it is the most
worthy prize of all, and without its effort,
all material success and fame is sheer
emptiness.
To discover the value of one's own dignity
is also a discovery of the value in the
dignity of others, and through that, the
dignity of a community. Here again the ethos
of Sherwood guided me.
I remember one such episode very well.
I do not know if that small hill above us is
still known as Dorothy's Seat. For those of
you in the audience unfamiliar with the
name, it was christened thus on account of a
young girl, a painter, who used to paint the
landscape from its eyrie, until one day she
fell to her death.
The poignant and ethereal beauty of
Dorothy's Seat was where All Saints quite
aptly held their annual picnic. We boys
would surreptitiously steal up the hill to
behold this glorious sight, hiding ourselves
in the undergrowth to elude discovery. But
on one occasion, we were spotted: we fled
anonymous. At dinner that evening, the
Principal entered the Hall, made the
announcement of discovery, called upon the
offending individuals to own up to their
heinous deed immediately in front of the
whole school. One by one, we twelve rose,
dread-footed.
Invited to the Principal's office we were
soundly caned.
But in acknowledgement of our honesty, we
were spared the full six of the best. Like
answered like. We got four instead, but
still the best of them I can tell you! This
is dignity.
'Fair play' might be considered a British
tradition - a tradition most famous of
course in their inconsistency in applying it
- but such historical mythologies underpin a
truth that really counts and that Sherwood's
ethos wholly embraces. It is the ideal of
fairness - the true spirit of Justice, not
its letter.
On this point, I would like to speak further
about the spirit of Justice beyond the realm
of Sherwood, to speak of the larger
community we all share, and how it relates
to us as individuals.
The right to education is a fundamental
human right, a fundamental dignity. It is
enshrined in our Constitution, in the
Universal Declaration of Human Rights and
the International Human Rights Covenants,
which have the force of international law.
To pursue the aim of education for all is
therefore a duty for states. But it is not
just a duty for states: it is a duty for
every one of us to uphold fundamental human
rights. Not just our own, but for all.
Yet here in India, basic literacy is still
below the threshold level of 75%.
Literacy, being able to read and write, is
always more than the sum of its parts,
because of what it opens up for people.
'Literacy' ends up being a kind of metaphor:
as soon as one can read and write, one
becomes a member of a much larger community
than would be otherwise possible, a
community that also extends into the past
and the future.
Literacy not only enriches our inner lives.
It is also an indispensable means for
effective social and economic participation,
contributing to human development and
poverty reduction.
Is meeting a 'threshold' enough? Is that
what we want for India? How is it that sixty
years after the birth of Independence in the
fire of noble idealism, have we come to
this? Is that fulfilling our duties as a
community of citizens? No! It is not.
Not being able to read is a human poverty.
Not being able to read is an inhuman
poverty. Not being able to read deprives the
human of the right to live in our
collectivity. Not being able to read is a
loss of freedom.
That a third of our population is deprived
of this freedom deprives us all of our
freedom.
I did not fully appreciate the reality of
this unfreedom until during my brief venture
into politics, when it was a real experience
going out to the villages and rural areas in
an official capacity and seeing the absolute
deprivation of my fellow human beings. It
was my first real exposure to it. I will
never forget it.
When I started thinking about coming here
for Founder's Day, and then thinking further
upon the subject of education in general, I
came at last to reflect upon what more I
should be doing.
I had not previously really thought through
that it was my duty to do so, not only as a
citizen of India but as a human being. Quite
simply, I am still a student and I hope that
I always will be, for I have much yet to
learn. I am grateful to Sherwood's continued
stimulus, and will endeavour to consider
this issue further.
The distinguished education that Sherwood
College students receive by comparison with
the large majority is the greatest of
privileges, although it should not be so. In
a just world, it would not be so. All of you
deserve the finest of educations: it is your
right and your duty, both to yourselves and
to others. At Sherwood, you have the
bountiful means to it. But so it should be
for every child in this country. Democracy
should not be the Great Leveller. It must be
the Great Uplifter. It should not destroy
distinction for the few but create it for
the many. It should use such examples as
Sherwood as a blue-print for the education
of all.
I would like to argue that the focus of
Equality should not be to aim for 'equality
of outcome' - an impossible and dangerous
ideal. Impossible because we all have our
distinct and individual talents and merits;
dangerous in the potential that it punishes
difference, which in a pluralist society is
wholly unacceptable. And it produces a stale
homogeneity that makes a culture really
boring. Equality should aim for 'equality of
opportunity' - the aim to provide all
individuals with a wealth of opportunity
through good education to pursue their own
distinct talents and hence their opportunity
to flourish in their own distinctness.
A good education is the most valuable thing
that a human being can possess. It is our
greatest wealth, individually and
collectively. In the world beyond these
walls, fortune comes and goes, money comes
and goes, but a good education can never be
taken away once it has been possessed.
Academic achievement is not enough. The kind
of knowledge gained through a good education
is more than just the acquisition of
information. Knowledge is learning what to
do with all that information - that is the
role of good character. And learning what to
do with knowledge is the path to wisdom.
And knowledge is most valuable when it is
shared. To all of my fellow students out
there, may we take heed every day of our
wealth: hunger for it, strive for it,
nurture it, but above all, share in it, for
then it multiplies manifold. We share it
through reading, surfing, listening,
talking, debating, exploring with each other
about what is good and bad in what we do,
say and believe.
This is how democracy and education are so
deeply interlinked. Our democracy will only
ever be as good as our system of education
allows it to be. Our democratic literacy,
along with our most basic literacies, must
be ever expanded and strengthened.
There is one last recollection of my time
here at Sherwood that I would like to share
with you before we part. It was a lesson I
learnt here with the help of my father. It
is a lesson above any other that has helped
me to do more than merely survive or endure
life, but to better understand it.
I had won the Kendall Cup for my part in The
Government Inspector. The next year, and my
last one, I had heady hopes to win it again,
this time with Agatha Christie's And Then
There Were None. What great glory it would
be to win the Cup two years running, I
thought. It would be a feat never achieved
before!
Electric with anticipation, I could hardly
sleep the preceding night what with thoughts
of the next day, Founder's Day, this very
day where we all gather now. The festive
activities, the play in its final
performance, the joy of seeing my parents
after six months apart.
And then, as the morning broke out across
the hills around us, so did a rash on my
face. My roommate Ravi Dhavan dismissed my
initial assumption that it was simply an
allergic reaction to a brush with a wild
plant during a bout of pastoral frolicking.
He suspected worse. "It's measles", he said,
and he was right. Spirited off to splendid
isolation in the school infirmary, all I
could think of was the Play. The Play that
evening. The Play of my hopes.
"I hope they don't stop me from performing -
I shall remain in the Hospital and just go
out to the stage in time for the start -
will just do my part and come back - please
I will not touch or mix with anyone - it's
merely a matter of two hours - how will they
find a replacement, there has been no
understudy - my parents are coming all the
way from Delhi to see me act - you cannot do
this to me."
But it was a foregone conclusion. The
Principal, the late Reverend RC Llewelyn,
made grave visitation and in somber tones
pronounced judgement. I would have to miss
the play. Mr Berry, our Drama teacher, would
play my part.
My misery was inconsolable. Beneath my smile
of defeat, I wept within. Numbed, broken in
the grief of defeat, I watched the cruel
passing of the day alone and wretched. The
evening drew in tight around my throat like
a manacle. From my incarceration, I watched
the crowds gathering for the Play in this
very Hall; their cheerful murmur echoing up
the amphitheatre of the hill was an agony to
my ears. The ringing of the three customary
bells before the start, the voice of the
Principal, applause, then silence. The din
of my heart was deafening to me.
Then, softly, my father enters the room,
sits down beside me, without a word. Neither
of us speak. Gently he reaches for my hand,
places his upon mine, then with the great
strength of his spirit he grips me, without
a word. Our eyes do not meet, we don't look
at each other. Just stare out through the
window beyond. So we remain for some time.
And then, even now, I hear his voice.
"Man ka ho to acchha. Man ka na ho to zyada
acchha !"
If things happen according to what you wish.
It is good.
If things do not happen according to what
you wish, then it is even better.
For the entire duration of the Play there he
sits, holding my hand, understanding the
pain I suffer, and explaining his words of
guidance, arguing them, insisting on them,
giving examples, refuting my replies,
persisting until I was won.
If things do not happen according to your
wish then they happen according to the wish
of the Almighty, and that is always for the
Good. They are better, greater, wiser wishes
than one's own.
It has been the greatest lesson of my life.
One that has stayed with me in every
situation. It has been my strength in
adversity; my companion in pain and
tribulation; my dearest friend in moments of
glory and joy.
I leave these words with you before I take
my final bow here today.
Humans perish, not their words. They are
eternal.
Particularly the written ones, and
particularly if they can be read.
"Man ka ho to acchha. Man ka na ho to zyada
acchha !"
Today, may we remember on Founder's Day
those eternal words of our first Prime
Minister, Jawaharlal Nehru, on another day
of momentous foundation, that of the
Independence of India. He speaks for us, for
our collective pledge, for our tryst with
destiny:
The achievement we celebrate today is but a
step, an opening of opportunity, to the
greater triumphs and achievements that await
us. Are we brave enough and wise enough to
grasp this opportunity and accept the
challenge of the future?
That future is not one of ease or resting
but of incessant striving so that we may
fulfil our pledge.
May we all here today persevere to redeem
that pledge as best we can, according to our
own individual and invaluable and singular
talents.
Mereat quisque palmam. This is dignity.
High up in the clouds as I look out of the
window of the chartered jet I am unable to
rid myself of the three days spent at
Sherwood. They were not three days. They
were the three years of the happiest days of
my life.
The thud of the landing breaks my reverie. I
am now in Delhi. In a few hours I shall be
back in the air to Bangkok, to the IIFA
weekend, to press conferences, to the world
premier of 'Sarkar Raj', to business forums
and the commitment to universal causes, to
charitable events for the needy in our
Industry and to the final Award
extravaganza.
As I walk past the Immigration at
Suvarnabhoomi Airport, Bangkok, my hand goes
into my coat pocket and the gentle prick of
a pin raises my curiosity. It's a small
object that I can feel. I pull it out.
It's the small plastic badge that we had all
been wearing proudly on our lapels for the
past few days, so considerately designed and
given out to each one of us by 'Tich'
Khanna. Mine read -
AMITABH BACHCHAN
Class of 1958
With much love and affection to you at 7:40
pm on the 9th of June 2008
